The thing is, that This is speculation (with all respect).

I, on the other hand, do not lack courage to do hard things. But I have learned that it is a strawman - it does not make you happier to quite you job, leave your spouse, go for your passion in a startup, etc.

Luckily I fucked up everything in that fever dream early enough that it did not have substantiel impact on my life.

tell us your story

So many people are telling this story. Ryan Holiday, Mark Manson, Michael Easter, Marcus Aurelius.

There is no way that any of us, including the man and the author, know that he would have been happier had he made different decisions.