The internet is wrong. Nothing happens when you cross the barrier. Do what makes you fulfilled and live without regrets. Nothing worse than wasting the limited time we have worrying about things we cannot change. (talking to myself now haha)
I would absolutely love to tell my brain to stop thinking about "should haves" because there is literally nothing you can do about it. But here I am :)
I "should have" never allowed myself to become obese in college. I "should have" lost the weight in my early 20s. I "should have" focused on fitness during the pandemic. But that's the past. Yesterday would have been a better choice but tomorrow is a worse choice than today ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Got in a funk a few months ago and decided to make some changes. 5 months later I'm down 30 pounds. Fell off the bandwagon after Christmas but I'm pulling myself back onto it. Transferring offices to be near my friends, many of whom are fitness and health nuts who have all told me they're going to drag me kicking and screaming into the wonderful world of actually taking care of myself.
Who knows, maybe I'll actually feel better in my 30s than my 20s as a result. Not that I feel bad now. Even though I'm a 6'4 blob I can still go out and take a 6 mile hike without any pain or trouble.
At thirty, you will feel like nothing has changed (and be disappointed about that). At 32 you will feel strangely young again. At 36, you will feel 40, and at 40 you'll be thinking about retirement.
Could be me justifying my own tendency to ruminate haha, but occasionally "should haves" can be productive if you learn something that improves your mental model of the world. Either way, glad to hear you're prioritizing your health! The hard work pays dividends :)
